Our Angel Kaleb

It’s been two years since Kaleb passed away, and it’s still as fresh in my mind as the day it happened. I still think about him everyday. Naturally the world has moved on from this tragedy while time has stayed still for me. Wondering what could have been with our little guy. Wondering when he would be walking, or talking, Wondering what we’ve would have been doing to pass the time. Wondering what his laugh would sound like. Thinking of how he would love to be playing with his cousins. Wondering if he would be daddy’s little sidekick. Just wondering what memories we would have if only our little Kaleb was here. I would give anything to have him here with us. My love for Kaleb is indescribable. For those of you who have never heard our story, here is a brief description of what happened.Also, some of you have been wanting to see what we chose for his marker. And after a lot of thought, we felt a sailboat and christ would be most fitting for our little guy.


It all started on June 15th about 3:45 am I woke up experiencing severe pains and what we now know were contractions. We were trying to figure out what to do including calling my mom in Utah. About 20 mins later my water broke. Josh hurried and called and ambulance and they were at our place within minutes. At first none of the ambulance personal spoke English at all. They actually called an English speaking doctor to come and could communicate with us. One of the funny parts is the ambulance crew could not figure out how to get me out of the apartment. We are actually only up about 3 stories, but the elevator will only fit two people. Instead of the crew carrying me down the stairs, they called in the fire department. They decided to bring in a crane to hoist me down the building.

Once we arrived at the hospital they did an ultrasound and found Kaleb was still alive but not doing well. The doctor came in a short time later to inform us Kaleb is was dieing and that I would still need to have the child. I spent 13 hours in labor (with no epidural). We had a little boy who weighed 11 inches and 14.18 ounces. He was born at aprox 5:30 pm June 15, 2006. He did not survive the labor and passed away in the womb.

According to the doctor here I had an infection in the membranes that hold the amniotic fluid sack together. The infection ate away at the membranes until there was nothing there to hold the fluid in my womb. My body thought the pregnancy was done so it went into labor. There is only one way to detect this problem and that by putting a needle in through the belly button and piercing the amniotic sack. This is an extremely dangerous test and more often than not will cause birth defects or loss of the baby. Our doctor speculated the infection had been going on for the last few months. Simply there is really no explanation where it came from or how I came in contact with it. Kaleb was perfectly normal and healthy. He had developed everything a 6 month old child should have. He just needed to grow a bigger.

Kaleb is our little angel. We feel peace to know our Heavenly Father is looking after him for us. We feel blessed to have felt of his joy if only for a short time. We feel blessed to know he will not have to suffer the pains and difficulties of this life. Many people in the hospital asked why were able to take this so well. We had lots of missionary experiences with the hospital staff who have never even heard of Mormons before. I feel so blessed to know we have one child who is absolutely perfect and has made it to the celestial kingdom. It helps me live righteously knowing that one day we will be with him again Our hearts are still hurting for we love our little Kaleb very much. We certainly have felt of support from family and friends even though we are so very far away.