Mothers Day

First I would just like to give a tribute to my mother. She has been so helpful to me. During the last few years through all we have been through she still takes the time to call me consistently and check in. She has been a great listening board to bounce ideas off & supportive for everything I am doing. She is awesome at knowing my needs at any given time. Many a care package or phone call has been sent just because she is in tune with her daughter.

Second I want to thank my mother-in-law for raising such a tremendous son. He always attributes the way he is with me from his mother’s teachings.

Mother's Day was definitely a hard day for me this year. As much as I've loved the opportunity to travel these last couple of years, I would give it up in a heart beat to be able to experience the joys of motherhood. The heart ache of not having a child at times can be unbearable. I enjoy admiring other mothers and how they are with their children. I see certain characteristics in mothers, which make me so excited to be a mom. I hope when the time comes, these items can be incorporated in the way I raise my children. It makes me crazy to see moms over here sometimes who smoke with their kids, ignore them or don't appreciate their children. Infertility has taught me some valuable lessons. This is where my faith has kicked in and helped me truly realized I don't have control of my life. I have to make the best of situations no matter what comes my way. As much as I know mother hood will be an extremely difficult task. I can't wait to take it on. If I have learned anything from infertility I will appreciate the great honor to be a mother.

Over the last two years I have learned about what true strength really is. Through all the tears and heartache I have learned how to cope and move forward. Strength is something that is earned through work. I have changed from the person I once was. I now am better able to take on new challenges and face my fears. I appreciate how my marriage with Josh has grown. He has been an amazing rock for me, always supportive and loving. I am truly grateful for support I have received from friends and family.

On one final note, I would like to thank Josh for my wonderful Mother's Day present. He gave me a cooking class in Florence this weekend with the girls. And I can't wait. Once again, he knows the way to a women's heart. I love you sweetie!